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Plain and simple..there will be nothing fancy about this page in the least bit. A visual aid or two if absolutely necessary, otherwise, nothing but me and my mind. And hopefully my hands to keep up. I can't wait for the day that i can just think what i want and have it turn up on my screen. Anyway, I've got this page going just to vent. To let off some steam about things..the little things to the big things. From how my carpet is a mess 'cause the rug i use leaves little knots of fabric to the argument about what is beautiful and what is not.

Feeling like your always being watched...walking in and out doors..not knowing where they go..digging through dumpsters..looking for what once was. so close to being right. Then losing it all.

I decided to quit smoking. Why am I telling you? I don't know, maybe if i tell enough people, then I'll deal better, or try harder. Its only been about a day since I last smoked. And I know this won't be easy. I'm an addict. Plain and simple. I've had a few situations where I would normaly pick up a smoke out of habit and spark up. I haven't done it yet. And that makes me happy and makes me sad. Sometimes a smoke is all I have to calm me. I won't feel like i'm falling apart..in some tiny spiral that pulls it all together. Someone pointed out...that sometimes we all feel like we're living a spiral . Spinning around the same spot, not really going anywhered. But do we know that? No, we could be moving up, higher in our thoughts, higher in our knowledge. Bet you didn't know you were moving up did you?

Are you over reacting or under reacting?

I could never get into tennis

A love for real not fade away....bop bop bopbop...
i'm a gonna tell you how its gonna be..bop bop bopbop...
your gonna give your love to me..bop bop bopbop...
a love to last for more than one day..bop bop bopbop...
a love is a love not fade away...bop bop bopbop...
i wanna love you night and day..bop bop bopbop...
you know my love won't fade away..bop bop bopbop...
you know my love won't fade away..bop bop bopbop...